(Source: longhairdontcare22)
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found this old photo of my boyfriend that was taken years before we met. probably before i was even born…
sometimes i wish i could have met him when he was my age. see that dark and mysterious boy with his skinny model body and his Ian Curtis type broody demeanor. but then i realize how much more interesting he is now with all that extra life experience…
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dear art,
I love you. i think i loved you before we even met. I will always be thankful to the people who introduced me to you.
there have been many times when I feared that I’m not good enough for you. there still are. but after all these long years my love for you has never withered. I still get nervous butterflies when I think of you. whenever I see you my heart starts racing. i feel excited, alert, inspired… i feel so alive!
i often feel i have let you down by not spending all my waking life with you. i dream about you all the time but sometimes i feel like we can never be together because i don’t have enough courage to work tirelessly toward it. or to finally jump in with both feet and face you. or i don’t know the right paths and the right people who could bring me closer to you. i still feel i’m too new for this, that i’m not ready, that something’s missing… in fact i feel like i’m standing at your window, looking inside. i see all the fun and beauty as well as the hard work and anguish. and i really want to get inside but i don’t dare to break in. and i can’t find the door… but my dear art i love you so much, i can not imagine my life without you!
so i hope it will be like in all those wonderful movies - that love will show me the way. that i will find courage and that i will work out a plan to be with you, to be a part of you. i know you’ll never give up on me.
yours always,
A
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it’s my partner’s birthday. i hope he will like the presents i got him. i sure as hell would like to get all that. anyway, it’s hard to find presents for someone who seemingly has everything already…
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“I miss you so much, I cant wait to see you more than anything and even though I am so tired from all that’s going on here you make me feel so strong, fair and certain with humour and kindness. It’s the most wonderfull feeling. Looking at you today my heart was bubbling up, knowing you and the thought of you makes me so happy”
that’s a message I found in my inbox this morning. and when my first impulse was to post a lot of <3 pics and wish everyone I came across a happy Valentine’s Day, I knew I must be in trouble. or worse/better: in love. usually I’m the first person to deny the existence of V day because why should our loved ones get only one special day in a year, I mean what about the other 364!?
so even though I’m spending my V day alone, i have someone who sends me messages like this and that’s what gets me through the day with all the hand-holding, eye-gazing couples and happy people with flowers around… I just really hope that you have someone lovely to spend this day with. or if you are alone on Valentine’s Day then we can be so together. besides - where I come from today is not only about hearts and romance but also about friends. so happy Friend’s Day my dear lonely and less-lonely anonymous friends!! xoxoxo
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the dearest-coolest ship in the world as far as I’m concerned. I miss the Bob and the crew so much sometimes… sigh! I hope they are safe & happy down in the Southern Ocean right now. and that no whales will be killed in Antarctica this season. sleep tight whales, we are awake! <3
